I think very soon I shall make my own shirt. Once I recover my money cuz alot of money spent on class and books. Fucking chibei. And i think the cost of getting a shirt made is almost similar to buying a shirt from a shop. So, why not be different. Yea.

eight.shirts.

I came up with the brand “eight”. I don’t really like shirts with too much messy designs. I mean like, just go straight to the point.

Introducing. “eight”.

Currently, its in red and white. Haha. Patriotic abit la. National day mah. Haha.

My Video Production assignment is coming up very soon. After seeing some of the clips the seniors did, I’m motivated to make one abstract one. And try to really put in alot of effort in producing the video. Last year’s video assignmnt was a big screw up. And hope with new members, I will produce great one.

I was planning to go around the theme of homosexuality. Why homosexuality? Cause people are still shallow-minded and not open to these people around them. Stereotypicals will see them and instantaneously “Eeeyer”. Such stereotypes. Hey, I have an open mind as to treat them as normal human too. Cuz I have a close friend who is one and believe me, they are much nicer people than those quiet quiet gaming typa people.

I was thinking of asking her to be my main character. The plot will be something like living a life condemned by society. Most will be like a voice over and abstract scenes showing the couple’s intimacy. But the thing is, the main character look abit too young that it will loose the impact.

I have these abstract scenes and the location in my mind. For example like when the char is having thoughts and stuffs, she/he will be in this lift with mirrors and stuffs. It’s as if he’s confined to a tight space and the mirrors reflect him. Then he will be at town walking around with his gf/bf, hands holding each other and people are just staring at them. And all those shit ah. Basically its about an everyday life of a queer.

But my members are those likely to do those very action-packed thriller kinda. So mebe i have to change the whole story to have alot of fightings. That will make everyone happy.

But on the other hand, I think i wana do the homosexuality one cuz one; it’s a big topic and two; people are always avoiding to touch on this topic. So producing one (and hopefully a great outcome) will turn the heads of people and say, hmm.. i didnt know they wud actually feel this way. And also i hope it will change the minds of my classmates on the way they see some of their own classmates in their class. I’m just letting them see the other side of the story.

If you are my classmate and think that i am one. Well Fuck you. Im just defending their rights as a human being and i am just producing a movie. Don’t try to fuck around and spread rumors. You are just too shallow-minded as to see that they are great people who do know how to enjoy their life. And how does it feel if people ostracise you cause you played too much lan gaming or whatever bullshit? It’s unlike me to ostracise people but you would think that if i talk to them, I am like one of them. Just pure Bullshit and immature.

Grow Up. Adapt to changes around you. As you journey in life, you meet different people. So fuck you if you’re stubborn enough to not accept them as your friend.

Man, just for this semester we hafta buy about 4 books. And the thing is that we cant get second hand books! Cuz one; the seniors want it too. two; we have not much contact with the seniors la!

And it's sooo burning a hole in my pocket! Fucking Cheebei. I actually wanted to go shopping for shirts and shoe. Now's like FuckDamNit! Imagine, one book cost at least 30-40 bucks! i can like buy 5 shirts or one shoe with that amount!

Today's quite a day. Had mass lecture for Music MIDI. Very hands-on. Talk about timbre and all that. And the lecturer brings all sort of everyday object junks such as tin cans, pots and pans and poles to explain it to us. And he wanted to demonstrate how we can produce sound by blowing through a metal tube. He asked for someone playing the trumpet.

And of course, some who knew me arrowed ME! Cuz apparently, Im like the only one playing? And so i'm labelled as the blower. Fuck only. Hello, first of all, it's not actually blowing but it's buzzing. Wathehell.

Omg. Im dying. To know the truth. 

So here it goes again.

Dear Diary,
Life has been pretty boring if I am at home cause I will just get hooked to the computer. Of course, the company of friends make it much more enjoyable and all but of course, something’s lacking for a long long time. And that thing is called the feeling of being loved again.

School’s starting in 3 days’ time. Am looking forward to it.

Ciao.

I'm like ranting on useless topicless subjects evrytime.

Was YouTube-ing. Aah. Reminiscing about those time when I was in band. Participating in SYF. Playing Ivanhoe. And how we got gold for the first time and everyone was shedding tears of joy.

It was nerve-wrecking. Especially when I have a small solo in the piece. I actually screwed my solo up but I tricked abit and it turned out nice. I remembered when I was about to play my solo, and no sound came out from my cornet, my senior next to me was sighing "oh my god". Wow, great motivation there.

It was a great experience to be in band. Yeah, they said I was a freak, always about band and stuff, but I did not regret my path right now. And I've performed at Esplanade concert hall with the Russian Symphony Orchestra, performed at London Embassy, and all. I'm proud of that. And now that I'm in poly majoring in Multimedia Tech, I love it. Just that I have some unenthusiastic friends which bores me.

And also, life's a bore without any dearly beloved. Hey it's been a year alright. And know what, I'm like the bad-est in my class? As in like I smoked and I have a like more ex-girlfriends? And that is actually considered as if like I'm the baddest. And when I was in CSS,I'm like the innocent one? Haha. It's so upside down.

Hmm. Smoking’s just an unhealthy lifestyle right? Doesn’t mean you smoke, you’re bad and hanyut (drifted) ryt?

Like what eff wrote, “Tobacco is my solace these days“. And it really is for me, especially when I’m effed up in coming up with some creative designs. As in like, cigarrettes make me like stop for a moment in what I’m stressing on, clear my mind, and so that I could think clearer.

But now that I’m having a sore throat and cough, yeah, it’s a break from them sticks for now. Hah.

Success comes together with determination.

They say. 

Going down to ButtCheeks later again. He's gona pay me for the shirt designs as well as starting up on another project. Woo. But I'm like losing interest on doing another project if he continues paying me a minute sum. Grr.

Ciao. Gota Shit, Bath, get Dressed, head Town. 

Ok, now I know what it’s meant by being a Band Freak. The definition of “Band Freak” means, your life revolves around the word, Band, Music, Instruments. You eat Band, Sleep Band, Talk about Band, and loves Band.

No, we’re not talking about band with guitarists, drumsets and vocal; it’s Symphonic Band. Was I a band freak last time? Well, to some of my friends, maybe yeah. If I was, I couldn’t help it. The whole load of stuff about band is on my shoulder. I was one of the management in band last time. And at least I cared about how things go. Me and my other exco was like the one trying to maintain it but it still failed due to a useless Drum Major. And since I had the second top post, I need to do something.

Whatever it is, it certainly taught me about leadership and politics. About bitches and born-bitches.

And after leaving that school, I realised, “Hey! I wasn’t appreciated and even when I went down the bandroom, noone actually said Hi to me, even the conductor.” I know my batch was a screw-up but because of that you bore grudges against me? Or maybe I felt that way. And what’s worst, the band members looked as if they don’t know me. Great.

That is why, I don’t really like being in band anymore. I don’t feel appreciated.

So as I was saying? Like seriously, how can someone’s life be just revolving around band. Yes you could. You will even blog about band on almost all your entries.

And that’s Boring.