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totally.

4 more freaking months, to go. Alot of high key activities happening during fasting month. They somehow hinting us that it is not advisable to fast due to the vigorous activities. Alot of guard duties next month which means our weekend might be at stake. And weekends would be the only time when we could break fast together with the family.

It finally dawned upon me that fasting month is coming up real soon. I held back my tears when csm talked about it. Kinda emotional cuz somehow, I started visualising the idea of me going back home before dusk ready to break fast together with the family everyday. And then I imagined my absence on weekdays at that dining table when its time to break fast. It just feels so, empty. It’s like you used to take things for granted and then now reality hits you hard; they are your family, the ones you come home to every weekend.

Gawd it feels overwhelming.

Then comes the news that fieldcamp would be a week after hari raya. A week staying in the jungle with no form of communication with the family. When people are going house to house for hari raya visits.

Why oh why.